Without You.

I honestly do not know what i would do without Jesus. He is the only reason i have made it to where i am today, and the only reason i have made it through all the situations in my life. I am currently going through one, and its just amazing to see God through it all, I bet God is loving it, i know i certainly am :D i have never needed God more than i do right now, i need Him to get through each day, I need His healing power, His love, Him. God desires to be our all, and right now, thats what i am doing, i am surrendering all to Him, what else can i do?
on that note, i couldnt imagine life without Jesus, but i knew it once, i have been a Christian for 3 years, and its crazy how fast your old life can fade away, yah some old habits come up, but i couldnt imagine life without Jesus, and that is what im using to fuel and inspire me to reach out to people, people just like i was, wondering the earth, with no real purpose, no one to turn to at all times. i want more of a heart for the unsaved, more of a desire to see God's love flow through everyone. We cant just sit here and be selfish with what we have, yes Jesus is great, yes He loves me, but if i dont share that, what am i doing here? if im not showing His love to others why am i here? Gods call for all of us is to go and make disciples, and that can sound a little harsh and distant, but He spent ALL His time with His disciples, and wants to spend ALL His time with us. He loves each and everyone of His children, those that know Him, but ESPECIALLY those who dont. I challenge you to sit in the presence of God and ask Him to show you, make you feel, even a small fraction (dont know if anyone could handle much more) of the love He has for His unsaved children. Ask. Just do it. and once you have done that allow it to fuel you, to talk to that person at school, at work, on the bus. You might be the only Jesus they ever met. make it count.

Follow You

Follow You

I tried to run, I tried to hide
I tried to leave it all behind
But there you were without a doubt
Offering the answers to what life's about

You hold the key, its in your hand
I take it firm, I take my stand

Till everyone is made pure,
Till everyone is ready to endure,
The price it costs,
To pick up the cross
And follow you

I will fight for you my King of Kings,
Till everyone joins in and sings,
The name of the Lord out loud,
Until holy, holy, holy is the only sound.

You hold the key, its in your hand
I take it firm, I take my stand

Till everyone is made pure,
Till everyone is ready to endure,
The price it costs,
To pick up the cross
And follow you

Down the road of forgiveness,
Down the road of compassion,
Down the road of love,
For you are love, you are love.

wow.

today at work i was having my lunch, and employees lunches usually overlap by a little bit, which i love! gives me an awesome opportunity to get to know my co-workers, since it can be kinda hard when your running around getting orders and everything.
anyways, i have worked with this one girl a few times, and i really like her and we get along well. so we end up having our lunches overlap so we are just chatting about life, we started discussing our lunches which led to her asking if i live at home, and then me asking her if she does. turns out she has been in 13 fosters homes in 16 years, moved out with her boyfriend at 16 and they just bought a house together. and she know has just started spending time with her parents. it blows my mind. i just sat there in silence and thought of what it must be like, and i couldnt even imagine what she has gone through, i mean, i like most ppl have a pretty dysfunctional family, but i was blessed with one that loves me, and makes sure i know it! i just cant imagine what it must be like to float from home to home never really getting to settle, all those hard times in your teens you go through and having to do that while constantly moving. wow.

Captivating

so i am reading this AMAZING! book, its called Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge, and its taking me awhile to get through it, but each time i pick it up i read exactly what i need to hear! i love how God works that way.
so on my lunch break i was sitting in the staff room, and i ususally dont read because it makes me sleepy and so relaxed and i dont want that when i still have 4 hours left of work lol. anyways, on to the story, so i was reading it and this one part stuck out to me, and so i thought i would share!
it was talking about the fall of Eve, and just retells the story of how the serpent tempts her. and in Gen 3:1-6 it says "The woman was convinced. The fruit looked so fresh and delicious, and it would make her so wise! So she ate some fruit. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her. Then he ate it, too."
and the author goes on to say "The woman was convinced. That's it? Just like that? In a matter of moments? Convinced of what? Look in your own heart--you'll see. Convinced that God was holding out on her. Convinced that she could not trust his heart toward her. Convinced that in order to have the best possible life, she must take matters into her own hands."

how many times do we think that? how many times do we doubt God? im sure more than most of us would care to admit, but for anyone who has spent time living for God or running from God knows that the ONLY place to be is in His loving arms. Life in our own hands, thats such a scary thought, i think back to before i knew God, oh my goodness GONGSHOW! not that life is all perfect now, but i have something to live for, someone to turn to at all times, someone who i can fully trust, who knows my future, who created me. and there is honestly nothing better than a personal relationship with Jesus!

He is the only one we can fully trust, He is the only one who knows what our future holds, He is the only one who will always be there, in good times and bad.

God is good.

God is sooo good! im so excited for youth tonight! its our first one since Consumed and im excited to see the changes that happened over the weekend as it rolls out into everyday life and every week at youth church!
work is going soooo well! i love it! last week was a little rough, but this week has been good! i started decorating cakes! OH MY GOSH SOOOO MUCH FUN!! i LOVE it! its awesome, to be able to be creative and have something to show for my work, i mean, you eat it eventually, but ya im loving it! and even with only 5 hours of sleep i had an amazing joy filled day as i relied on Jesus! oh and 5 hours of sleep is due to the fact i was up till 5am this morning with becka and ryan just hanging out and getting to know each other...it was also really awesome!
God is good and i just cant stop praising Him!

chillen out to Chris Tomlin!

ah! i love days off, and for me, it happens once a week, because i ususally get sunday mondays off but anyone who is involved with church knows sunday doesnt really count as a day off, altho i did pretty much nothing after church, ryan, matthew, and pam came over and matt, april and i all hung out with them, spent most of the day veggin on the couch watching tv, a very enjoyable day! and so today is my offical day off, i slept in which felt fabulous since im convinced im chronically sleep deprived lol, body still functions pretty well tho!
Consumed was AMAZING!! Jay and Kels and team did such an awesome job! it was so great to see God move, amongst all the youth but especially our youth, God did some amazing things this weekend and i look forward to what comes out of it! even in my life, i know God has done powerful things and will continue to, He's placed more desires on my heart, and a greater hunger for His word, and time with Him in general! It's awesome what God does when you set time aside for Him, and just hunger after Him!!
God is good!

oh, side note. i bought the new chris tomlin cd and am MADLY in love with it! i totally agree with Jason, who mentioned on his blog that as amazing as God of this City is, it isnt his fav song on the cd and its not mine either, not that i can decide which one is lol. its totally one of those, "oh this is my fav song" and then "no wait, THIS is my fav song" ahahah! anyways, its just an amazing cd!

Consumed, part uno

so i thought i would quickly blog before heading to bed, its 130am and i have to BE at the church by 730am...ahahaha talk about needing Jesus! oh and im on worship, so if my eyes are closed for a long period of time im really not being all spiritual as it may seem, im most likely sleeping!

so what i got to of consumed was amazing! but tonight i will just tell about the story of my day yesterday (friday) so consumed started at 7 and i was on call for work at 5 (being a friday night meant i would most likely work) and so i was praying that i would not get called in so i could go to consumed, and as it got closer i prayed more and more because i really felt i was supposed to be at consumed. then at 11am my boss called and said someone called in sick and asked me to work a dayshift until 6pm! woot! Praise Jesus! not only did i make it to consumed, but i got the much needed hours at work! God is good!

bad gas

ok, so everyone is super excited that gas is down below a dollar, 97.9 when i last saw it, some ppl have even screamed in excitment the word "what" but it was such a high pitch squeal i have NO IDEA if that is what they actually said lol. *cough* *cough* matthew *cough* *cough*
i am not excited about it. and you may wonder why? you might think its because i dont have a car, but that my friend is not the case. you see, i think its a giant conspiracy, i think they jacked the prices up ridiculously high, so that we would all get sooo excited when they brought them down, to a price that is still stupidly high! and that is why i lack excitement over the price of gas.
what are your thoughts?

Sunday Joy!

so, yes, i have joined the blogging world! i have made fun of many in the past, and now hang my head in shame, im sorry, my bad. this actually looks like its alot of fun, hence the joinage on my part! just a guess, but if your reading this you probably know me so no sense boring you with the details. i might as well just get on with it and start my first blog! woot!

so i had a pretty awesome day, i dont know what it is about sundays but i absolutly LOVE them! i think its cause you always start the day off right, at church with Jesus and family! and then, i love not making any plans for the entire day and just going with the flow, for today it looked something like this:

church from 830-1230ish

boston pizza w/ a TON of ppl!
1ish-3ish
>it took so long cause there were so many of us but our waitress was AMAZING!!

Mark and Michelle's engagment party!
3ish-4ish
>congrats you two! sooo happy for you guys! <3


Sean and Dayna's for dinner and to hang out
430ish-8ish
>i love hanging out at their house!
Jay and Kels's
8ish-1030ish
> went with the Delblanc boys watched Get Smart which with them and Samantha and Randy as we decorated some things for consumed!

*side note* as you may have noticed lots of "ish" was in there because another joy of sundays is no need to really pay attention to time!
so a very full day! but very enjoyable and relaxing, and i got to spend time with soo many different ppl it was fabulous!