and BAM! it hits me

ever have those moments, where something is about to change and it kinda randomly just hits you?
ok, so, that might not make sense, i dont know how to word what im trying to say in a creative and catchy way, so i will just come out and say it!

today, i got an email from Clint at Pacific Life Bible College, giving me my new school email address, and BAM! it hit me. im going to school. in a month. holy moly!! i mean, in the back of my mind i always know im going, but its little things like that that make me stop and be like "wait, FRICK YAH IM GOIN TO BIBLE COLLEGE!!!!" teehee....so needless to say, i got a little excited, i AM a little excited, ok, i AM ALOT LOT LOT EXCITED!!! :D :D :D

3 weeks AHHHHHHH!!!

OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH!
i leave in 3 weeks....i have never been so excited and so freaked outta my mind before! well maybe i have, but not lately. this is definately going to be stretching...and im very excited!! oh, for those of you that may not know, im moving to Surrey to go to Pacific Life Bible College for 4 years to get my B.A. in Pastoral Leadership with a major in Youth Ministry.
just a little update, i have pretty much no money to go, am working on filling out student loans, i do have an amazing family i am moving in with, havent met them yet, but they are Delblanc twins approved so im all in :D :D :D and yah, im very excited to go and cant wait to learn and just grow deeper in my relationship with God and learn more, but im also extremly extremly sad to be leaving the island! i love this place, i love my church, i love my youth (courtenay and campbell river) i love my friends....i really really dont want to leave!! but, God willing, (in the words of my dear friend arnold) i'll be back!!

...

saying goodbye.
is gonna be hard.
letting go.
is gonna be harder.
getting over you.
is gonna be hardest.

in time, i will be ok.
but for now, i will let the tears come.