and BAM! it hits me

ever have those moments, where something is about to change and it kinda randomly just hits you?
ok, so, that might not make sense, i dont know how to word what im trying to say in a creative and catchy way, so i will just come out and say it!

today, i got an email from Clint at Pacific Life Bible College, giving me my new school email address, and BAM! it hit me. im going to school. in a month. holy moly!! i mean, in the back of my mind i always know im going, but its little things like that that make me stop and be like "wait, FRICK YAH IM GOIN TO BIBLE COLLEGE!!!!" teehee....so needless to say, i got a little excited, i AM a little excited, ok, i AM ALOT LOT LOT EXCITED!!! :D :D :D

3 weeks AHHHHHHH!!!

OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH!
i leave in 3 weeks....i have never been so excited and so freaked outta my mind before! well maybe i have, but not lately. this is definately going to be stretching...and im very excited!! oh, for those of you that may not know, im moving to Surrey to go to Pacific Life Bible College for 4 years to get my B.A. in Pastoral Leadership with a major in Youth Ministry.
just a little update, i have pretty much no money to go, am working on filling out student loans, i do have an amazing family i am moving in with, havent met them yet, but they are Delblanc twins approved so im all in :D :D :D and yah, im very excited to go and cant wait to learn and just grow deeper in my relationship with God and learn more, but im also extremly extremly sad to be leaving the island! i love this place, i love my church, i love my youth (courtenay and campbell river) i love my friends....i really really dont want to leave!! but, God willing, (in the words of my dear friend arnold) i'll be back!!

...

saying goodbye.
is gonna be hard.
letting go.
is gonna be harder.
getting over you.
is gonna be hardest.

in time, i will be ok.
but for now, i will let the tears come.

COASTLANDS KIDS CAMP!!

so, camp, as you have probably already heard was amazing!! kids accepting Jesus for the first time, rededicating their lives, being filled with the Holy Spirit, prophecy, visions, testimonies, praying for each other...ahhh! it was phenominal :D :D :D ok, so now to get to the part about me...well God and me :P

God stretched me and used me in ways i have never been used before....i led someone to the Lord for the first time ever!! what an incredible honor! i also prayed for 2 people to be filled with the Holy Spirit and one even started speaking in tongue (i had never done that before either!!) God stretched me even in just praying outloud in front of people....i hardly ever do it, and really, only when forced to...but each night i was bold and chose to pray for my girls before they went to sleep...it was scary...but good! i love being stretched!!
i also realized today, that camp brought me closer to God...which is crazy, cause thats most of the kids testimonies, but it just goes to show God works in you even when your serving!!! it was amazing! definetly the highlight of my summer :D :D :D
cant wait for camp next year!!!!!

Prayer: its not optional. its mandatory.

God has called me to intercession. He has called you to intercession.
The enemy. well. he doesnt like that too much. I have been praying and interceding for Steve while he is away in India. satan doesnt like that. he has been trying to trip me up for a couple weeks. its been a rough couple weeks. but not enough to break me because "greater is He who is in me, than he who is in the world" [john 4:4]. the enemy has tried to cause me to focus on myself. on stupid things. because once we focus inwards, we lose focus of the needs outwards. the needs we need to pray for.
so i encourage you right now, if you feel called to something (intercession, missions, outreach ect) the enemy is going to try to trip you up, get you to focus on yourself, but you need to push through, push harder. when satan pushes you, push back. with the power of God.
when you have issues arise, instead of focusing on them, turn your focus outwards even more-so. and its hard. as humans, we seem to enjoy wallowing in our misery. but God has called us to more. they are people in worse situations than us that need our prayers, that need to see God move in their lives, and the only way that happens is through us praying.
Our prayers move the hands of God.
Prayer: its not optional. its mandatory.

what? me? huh? oh right :P

haha. this is just a funny little peak inside my brain....

so, i am a leader. but, it most definitely catches me off guard like all the time when referred to as a leader!

example 1: up at CR Thrive, Ryan had decided that we should go hang out at the beach but wanted youth to phone their parents so they knew where they were, and then ryan hands his phone to some of the girls and says "call you parents, and if they want to talk to a leader, hand the phone to Breanne" first thought in my brain "wait, why me??.....oh....yah.....im a leader!"

example 2: this past weekend in Gold River, the youth were told by randy that they have to either tell himself, me, becka or daniel where they are going...yet again my first thought was why me? and then, it always clicks...right....that leader thing....i am one.....bahahahahah! so yah. i found it kinda humorous, thought you might enjoy it! love ya friends :D

challenge.

This morning on my way to work my thoughts were kinda random and all over the place and i started thinking about how when you like someone, like really like them, nothing else seems to matter. i have numerous times stayed up waaaaaaay to late, (even when working the next day) just to spend more time with that certain guy. I'm sure if your honest, we have all done it.

and then God poses this question: when have you done that for me?

ouch. that one hurt a little, not in a condemning way, but more of a challenge. here i am ready to spend all hours of the night not sleeping to hang out with that certain guy, but when it comes to God, i have more often then not, chosen sleep.

why would i do that? here is the freakin creator of the universe, the almighty, amazing, forgiving, LOVING God, and all He wants to do is spend time with me....yet i decide to go to bed early, or sleep in longer. huh.

God is really challenging me on this one, and i think if you let it, it will challenge you as well, because, well, im sure im not alone here!

*disclaimer* i am not saying you should stay up all hours of the night and ditch sleep, sleep is very important, and yes God does speak thru dreams, but im just saying, maybe, just maybe, dont hit that snooze button, and chill with your loving Daddy for a bit, cause He's waiting!!!