home to the island!

wow. crazy week!!! finals. packing. cleaning. last chances to hang out with friends before summer. oh and the boy. lots of time with him as well! hehehe.

for those of you that dont know, i am spending the summer with my family in crofton, hoping to get a job somewhere nearby (probably duncan) and yah, just having a good summer with the fam is the plan!!! the next few weeks however will continue to be chaos as my best friend kerrin is getting married may 15th and im her maid of honor!! i have been able to do practically nothing since she is in powell river and im in surrey so im hoping to make it up to her in the final weeks before the wedding!

i will hopefully be up to courtenay to visit lots... and hopefully a trip or two to campbell river and gold river as well!!!

so yes. schools out for the summer (did anyone else start singing the song in their head? that was my plan! muwahahah). i have one day left here (gonna be spent mostly with joshua <3 before 4 months apart!! gah!)

so im stoked for summer for so many reasons; sun, family, adventures, making money!! =)

sing a new song la la la la JESUS!

i am on a song writing roll!! it feels soooo sooo good!!! i started a song like a week ago and finished it yesterday and then found a song i had started in january and finished it today!!!!

this is exciting for me becuase usually it takes a lot of time and effort for me to write a song, they dont usually just come naturally.... but lately the creative juices have been flowing and God has most definatly been on my side... not that he wasnt before... i just... feel inspired!!! Praise Jesus!!!

God is sooo sooo good!!!

This semseter has been amazing!!! God has healed me of things from my past, brought the most amazing people into my life and just totally rocked my world!! i am so excited for what He has done but am even more excited for what He will do!!!

Craig Harris... an amazing man

so, today i randomly text my friend Mike (when i should have been doing an major essay due tues) to ask what hes up to, i end up going to a sunday night service at CLA where my first youth pastor was leading worship! i walked in and was like (in my head) is that Craig? no? yah? no? weird... haha then Mike looks up and is like "hey! thats Craig!" so it was amazing, after the service we tracked him down and went out to mcdonalds and hung out it was amazing.

Craig Harris is a huge part of the reason im here today, he was the first person to really pour into my life, to be that Godly big brother,to pray with and for me, to give Godly wisdom (altho, much to my stupidity i didnt follow it much) to just love me where i was at, and to listen time and time again as i struggled with the same issues.
many amazing people have come in and out of my life who have loved me and poured their lives into me like Craig, and i am so thankful for each one of them, but he was the first one to come along side me in my walk with God and that is something special!
He is why i want to be a youth pastor today. (aside from the whole God calling me to youth ministry thing :P) He was an incredible youth pastor and big brother figure in my life my first year or two of being a Christian, he always believed in me, and i want to do that in the lives of youth the way he did in the life of mine. i am so thankful that he was a part of my life, and i am so thankful that God has reconnected us.
He is an amazing man of God with many gifts and talents, he is an incredible family man, with a beautiful wife and 4 amazing children (3 i have met, one i look forward to meeting!) he is amazing at his job and has one of the most incredible voices i have ever heard... i still remember kerrin gration and i joking that we loved his voice so much we would buy his cd even if he sang about cows! hahaha.
He is just an amazing man of God and i am so blessed to have had him in my life!
Craig:thank you so much! i pray God blesses you beyond what you could hope for or imagine, and know this, you made a difference in this girls life! i would not be here today without you in my life that first stage of my walk with God. i love you brother!

www.projectrescue.com

check out this amazing site on sex trafficking they are doing incredible things in Nepal and India! but need your prayer and support!

www.projectrescue.com

i dont know about you, but this is a passion burning up my heart, consuming all i am, and i have no idea what i can do right now but pray and spread the word...

i encourage you, it doesnt take long, just go check it out... read around, its incredible what the victims go through, but what is being done about it is encouraging, but more needs to be done. i am behind this fight 100% until sex trafficking is no longer an issue!

join me in praying for sex trafficking to become a thing of the past and never an issue again!

micah 6:8

Micah 6:8 "He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly, and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God."

This verse is really speaking to me. especially the "act justly" part. there is a HUGE injustice in our world right now that God has put on my heart and its breaking my heart. if you read my blog i have talked about it before. sex trafficking. this time im not gonna post a bunch of statistics (if you want some scroll down to my previous post on sex trafficking) but more so just try to express how i feel with words.

it breaks my heart, not just breaks it, but shatters it, and i feel at such a loss cause i dont know what to do, i feel God has called me to pray and inform people, but that doesnt feel like enough (as important as i know both things are) i feel He is calling me to more, to be more involved, i just dont know how that will look yet.

im reading this book called "sex trafficking inside the business of modern slavery" by Siddharth Kara, im on page 22 and still in chapter one and its such a hard read. its so heart breaking. but the way i look at it is, as much as my heart breaks i cant imagine how broken those women and girls in those situations are.

my prayer is that you would ask God to give you a passion for an injustice, that he would break your heart for what breaks His, it doesn't have to necessarily be sex trafficking, but i feel God has an injustice to place on all of our hearts because the world is full of injustice and God desires to see justice, and He uses us for all else, so why should the injustices of the world be any different?

so step back, take a break from what your doing and ask God to break your heart for something that breaks His, weather its sex trafficking, homelessness, starvation, lack of water in 3rd world countries, or anything, i just encourage you and pray you would get passionate about something! (if you already are, kudos to you!)
keep on truckin my dear friends!

random updates...

so i now have a laptop!! woot! woot! no wireless at home, but at school i got interent! so this probably will mean i will blog more often!! for those of you that still follow...here is where you insert a "yay!" hehehehe.

oh, and i gots me a job!! woot woot! oh, and i got approved for student loans (finally!) lol.... so life is even going well financially, i plan to keep my spending to a minimum and save my money to pay off my student loans asap!!! woooootah!

and the job is at Please Mum in Guildford mall (about 5min bus ride from my house and about 20 from school) im pretty stoked! oh, and i get 50% off regular priced items...so if you have a child :P hehehehe.

i have been sick this past week with the flu... but am getting better, slowly... taking lots of medication and vitamins and getting lots of sleep! but feel free to pray for continued healing for me :D thanks!

well im off to finish my book report (being sick i have gotten behind in school work, but all is good!) ttyl!

so in awe

so today after school i went home and collapsed on my bed and bawled my eyes out...for a good 2omins or so...stuck on some worship music, and then texted a good friend for some prayer.

i started journaling and as soon as i wrote "i feel like im carrying the weight of the world and im all alone" God gave me two verses:

Matthew 11:29-30 which in verse 30 says "for my yoke is easy and my burden is light"

Hebrews 13:5 "never will i leave you, never will i forsake you"

and it wasnt like i wrote that in my journal and then waited on God for hours, before i had even finished writing my thought God gave me the verses! He's so awesome :D

my good friend texted me back and told me to breath and encouraged me to sit quietly for a few mins so i did (at this time i still had a worship cd on) i felt God say "turn to the radio, its your favorite song" so i did, and it was!!! it was Grace Like Rain!!! its one of my ultimate favorites!! God is so good!!

I'm so thankful that in my lowest moments, my greatest times of stress and sadness, God is there! tonight, He showed Himself in a very clear, and powerful way!! Thank you Jesus!!!

she never chose this

this is a song i wrote recently about sex-trafficking...i have no chords yet, somewhat of a melody forming, and i got the lyrics; here they are:

verse 1
she sits alone in the corner, quiet and ashamed
head hung low, allowing herself to be blamed
she cried so much the tears no longer come
she feels worthless, less than scum
wont someone save her from this misery?

chorus
call forth a generation to stand in the gap
allow something within us to snap
rise up an anger in us
of righteousness and justice
rise up a generation
of mighty warriors to go and fight this battle

verse 2
she's broken, battered and bruised
she feels left out, abandoned, and used
she cries out in the middle of the night
all she does is pray for daylight
wont someone save her from this misery?

bridge
with each man goes a piece of her
with each man her self-esteem deters
with each man she feels worthless
you can try and blame her, but she never chose this

my heart is broken.

so, for english we have 2 essays we have to write and we get to pick the topic, rob suggested we pick something we are passionate about (fyi, these essays arnt due till late oct and early dec....and im starting research now! wow. thats growth :P plus, im just really excited to write them cause i get to pick the topic!)

i started looking up sex-trafficking. my heart is broken. here. i will share some statistics with you, i highly recommend you dont just read over these and move on with you day, really think. pray. ask God what YOU can do. for me right now, i feel my job is to pray and make ppl more aware. it doesnt seem like im making that big of a difference from the human aspect of things, but i know how powerful prayer can be!
another thing. make it personal. imagine its your child, your sibling, your parent. what would you do if these statistics included a loved one?

my first focus was India/Nepal, so thats where most of the information i have at the moment is from.

every year 5000-7000 Nepali woman are trafficked for sex work, over 200,000 Nepali woman are currently working the sex industry...200,000! and thats JUST Nepali woman!!!

Girls are most often trafficked into India because prostitution there is legal, it is illegal in Nepal.

up to 20,000 Nepalese girls are trafficked into India every year.

3 million (!!!!!) women in India fall prey to trafficking annually and 40% (!!!!) are minors.

thats just a few...as i discover more i will share :D
keep praying!!
all these statistics are from internet sources.....
(http://stanford.edu)
(www.unicef.org)
(www.merinews.com)

WEEK 1 (of school, that is :P)

FRIGGIN AMAZING!!!! OHMYGOSH!!!

that really. sums it up. hehehehe. but, i will go into more detail for yah!

school, school, is incredible! my classes so far are amazing and i am learning so much, rob buzza has even made me desire to do english! (before his class i did nothing but complain, and rob helped change my attitude by what he said in our first class!) i had spiritual formation and a guest speaker came in and recited the whole book of philippians...FROM MEMORY!! he only messed up once....thats pretty incredible! he challenged us to memorize more scripture in case we are ever in a situation where we dont have access to a bible for whatever reason. philosophy of youth ministry...hahah the teacher, terry janzen is fantastic!! so halrious. but knows what he's talking about!
and yah, thru homework and reading i have had to do this first week i have learned so much im afraid my head might explode! lol.

i am making some awesome new friends, i even became friends with this girl (well lady, shes 27 years old, married and has 3 kids) who lives a few blocks away from me so she will give me a ride to and from school on tues and weds so i dont have to walk 20mins and bus for 10mins! thank you Jesus...and already, she called me up this morning to see if i wanted to go to the library with her...i sense a good friendship coming my way :D and yah, making new friends is one of my favorite things to do! so its been good, cause i have been able to do lots of that :D oh! and i also made a new friend on the bus, her name is Demitra! so pray for more opportunites for me to bring up Jesus in convo (not that its very hard considering im going to bible college and Jesus is my life, but yah, just pray for her :D thanks!)

oh, and the best part. i have felt God's presence 24/7...and our relationship is going to new and deeper levels, i freakin love it! I dont think i have ever been more in love with Jesus than i am at this moment!

well, i feel this is long enough for now...im off to dye my hair since the purple has faded to this nasty color! bahahah...anyways, if you got any questions or wanna hear more just send me a facebook msg...i have tons of great stories :D

Your are good...all the time...and all the time...you are good!

So, here i am. in surrey. wow. still hard to believe im here :D its been a rocky couple days, but through it all God has been with me!

so to start, my first day was really rough, i got super homesick, then ended up watching 12 hours of criminal minds with the family i live with lol (nothing like 12 hours of creepy killers and gruesome murders to bond ppl :P bahahahah) but yah, the family i live with is fantastic!!!!
the next couple days after that i just relaxed, went through waves of homesickness and being ok...

yesterday was registration for school...which was crazy and stressful, i mean, for example my textbooks alone cost me $600...ouch! that one hurt a little! but yah, i got to meet some new ppl and hang out with some of the guys in my same course (as far as i know, my first year class is 4 guys and myself, but Clint said there should be more ppl...so we shall see!)

and so yesterday once i came home i was really not doing so well...luckily i have a few friends from powell river that have moved here recently and so last night i ended up hanging out with an old friend mike. Back when i first became a Christian we met that way and then realized we had lived across the street from each other for a year or two so we ended up hanging out after school lots, for awhile there i think i spent more time at his house than my own lol!

anyways, it was nice to just chill out with someone i was 100% comfortable with! and it gets better :D He hasnt been doing so well with his walk with God and neither are his other Christian friends so im really excited to just be there for him, willing to talk about God...actually, more like i cant help but talk about God since He is such a huge part of my life!!

and yah, then today i woke up really homesick and i knew steve is on the mainland and i texted him and we are gonna hang out today :D
i love how at my lowest moments God has not only comforted me himself, but sent people for me! I am not alone!!!
i am so in love with my heavenly Daddy! He's the best :D :D :D

and BAM! it hits me

ever have those moments, where something is about to change and it kinda randomly just hits you?
ok, so, that might not make sense, i dont know how to word what im trying to say in a creative and catchy way, so i will just come out and say it!

today, i got an email from Clint at Pacific Life Bible College, giving me my new school email address, and BAM! it hit me. im going to school. in a month. holy moly!! i mean, in the back of my mind i always know im going, but its little things like that that make me stop and be like "wait, FRICK YAH IM GOIN TO BIBLE COLLEGE!!!!" teehee....so needless to say, i got a little excited, i AM a little excited, ok, i AM ALOT LOT LOT EXCITED!!! :D :D :D

3 weeks AHHHHHHH!!!

OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH!
i leave in 3 weeks....i have never been so excited and so freaked outta my mind before! well maybe i have, but not lately. this is definately going to be stretching...and im very excited!! oh, for those of you that may not know, im moving to Surrey to go to Pacific Life Bible College for 4 years to get my B.A. in Pastoral Leadership with a major in Youth Ministry.
just a little update, i have pretty much no money to go, am working on filling out student loans, i do have an amazing family i am moving in with, havent met them yet, but they are Delblanc twins approved so im all in :D :D :D and yah, im very excited to go and cant wait to learn and just grow deeper in my relationship with God and learn more, but im also extremly extremly sad to be leaving the island! i love this place, i love my church, i love my youth (courtenay and campbell river) i love my friends....i really really dont want to leave!! but, God willing, (in the words of my dear friend arnold) i'll be back!!

...

saying goodbye.
is gonna be hard.
letting go.
is gonna be harder.
getting over you.
is gonna be hardest.

in time, i will be ok.
but for now, i will let the tears come.

COASTLANDS KIDS CAMP!!

so, camp, as you have probably already heard was amazing!! kids accepting Jesus for the first time, rededicating their lives, being filled with the Holy Spirit, prophecy, visions, testimonies, praying for each other...ahhh! it was phenominal :D :D :D ok, so now to get to the part about me...well God and me :P

God stretched me and used me in ways i have never been used before....i led someone to the Lord for the first time ever!! what an incredible honor! i also prayed for 2 people to be filled with the Holy Spirit and one even started speaking in tongue (i had never done that before either!!) God stretched me even in just praying outloud in front of people....i hardly ever do it, and really, only when forced to...but each night i was bold and chose to pray for my girls before they went to sleep...it was scary...but good! i love being stretched!!
i also realized today, that camp brought me closer to God...which is crazy, cause thats most of the kids testimonies, but it just goes to show God works in you even when your serving!!! it was amazing! definetly the highlight of my summer :D :D :D
cant wait for camp next year!!!!!

Prayer: its not optional. its mandatory.

God has called me to intercession. He has called you to intercession.
The enemy. well. he doesnt like that too much. I have been praying and interceding for Steve while he is away in India. satan doesnt like that. he has been trying to trip me up for a couple weeks. its been a rough couple weeks. but not enough to break me because "greater is He who is in me, than he who is in the world" [john 4:4]. the enemy has tried to cause me to focus on myself. on stupid things. because once we focus inwards, we lose focus of the needs outwards. the needs we need to pray for.
so i encourage you right now, if you feel called to something (intercession, missions, outreach ect) the enemy is going to try to trip you up, get you to focus on yourself, but you need to push through, push harder. when satan pushes you, push back. with the power of God.
when you have issues arise, instead of focusing on them, turn your focus outwards even more-so. and its hard. as humans, we seem to enjoy wallowing in our misery. but God has called us to more. they are people in worse situations than us that need our prayers, that need to see God move in their lives, and the only way that happens is through us praying.
Our prayers move the hands of God.
Prayer: its not optional. its mandatory.

what? me? huh? oh right :P

haha. this is just a funny little peak inside my brain....

so, i am a leader. but, it most definitely catches me off guard like all the time when referred to as a leader!

example 1: up at CR Thrive, Ryan had decided that we should go hang out at the beach but wanted youth to phone their parents so they knew where they were, and then ryan hands his phone to some of the girls and says "call you parents, and if they want to talk to a leader, hand the phone to Breanne" first thought in my brain "wait, why me??.....oh....yah.....im a leader!"

example 2: this past weekend in Gold River, the youth were told by randy that they have to either tell himself, me, becka or daniel where they are going...yet again my first thought was why me? and then, it always clicks...right....that leader thing....i am one.....bahahahahah! so yah. i found it kinda humorous, thought you might enjoy it! love ya friends :D

challenge.

This morning on my way to work my thoughts were kinda random and all over the place and i started thinking about how when you like someone, like really like them, nothing else seems to matter. i have numerous times stayed up waaaaaaay to late, (even when working the next day) just to spend more time with that certain guy. I'm sure if your honest, we have all done it.

and then God poses this question: when have you done that for me?

ouch. that one hurt a little, not in a condemning way, but more of a challenge. here i am ready to spend all hours of the night not sleeping to hang out with that certain guy, but when it comes to God, i have more often then not, chosen sleep.

why would i do that? here is the freakin creator of the universe, the almighty, amazing, forgiving, LOVING God, and all He wants to do is spend time with me....yet i decide to go to bed early, or sleep in longer. huh.

God is really challenging me on this one, and i think if you let it, it will challenge you as well, because, well, im sure im not alone here!

*disclaimer* i am not saying you should stay up all hours of the night and ditch sleep, sleep is very important, and yes God does speak thru dreams, but im just saying, maybe, just maybe, dont hit that snooze button, and chill with your loving Daddy for a bit, cause He's waiting!!!

ha.....ha....ha...ha

ok, so at work, i am known as the clumsy and messy one...and here is a great reason of why:
this is how my work day went, by noon, i had slipped on the wet floor, not once, not twice, but yes! THREE TIMES!! then i went to put a cake down on the counter and smashed my finger between the cake (in a metal cake pan, ouch!) and the counter.....then! oh yes, there is more :P i hit my back and the top freezer door thingy, get a huge red mark...and that was all in the first 2 hours of work!!! then, near the end of my shift i burn myself, not just once, but twice, and the second time it blistered and really freakin hurts!!! like my goodness, is it really physically possible to be this clumsy?? i guess so eh? hahaha. well thought you might enjoy the laugh! thats all for now!!

<3 <3 <3

I love how God works....first He calls me to pray, then as i do that He shows me the power of prayer, and after that He calls me to pray more and more. It's gotten past the "oh i should pray cause i feel like it or cause i know i should" stage to the I'm so burdened to pray that all i can do is pray, thats all that makes it go away, i feel this heavy weight, and i know its God, i know its Him telling me to pray, Him using me, and you know why? because i asked Him too. I feel honored and humbled, that God would use me to do such powerful work for Him, only prayer can move His hands, and as His daughter, His princess, His prayer warrior, i can do that! and you know what? so can you!